gonna try to post pics...

me and mo on easter sunday



morgan's first snow day!

new job!!!

don't know if i mentioned it, but the job i got when i moved here was for tax season, with the possibility of longer, if they needed me. well, they didn't need me, so i've been unemployed since april 16th. it's been ok, i've been working with my husband and father in law.

but now i've got a new job!!! it has GREAT benefits, bankers hours (it's at a bank) but it doesn't pay all that much. but i'm still excited!!!

hopefully this means we will be able to do the home renovations we want to do sooner than planned!

yay!

once again a mrs....

well, we will be married 2 weeks tomorrow!
i was just thinking about what advice i will give to my daughter regarding marriage (which she will promptly ignore i'm sure). i do not claim to be an expert on anything, certainly not marriage. clearly i did something wrong the first time, and i'm only 2 weeks into this one :-)

but anyway, here's my 2 cents...

don't marry someone (or be in a serious relationship for that matter) thinking you can change them. it's hard enough to change your own habits and thoughts, impossible to change someone who doesn't want to change.

be sure to agree on these 3 things: religon, kids and money - the big 3 -

love is a choice. love is an action. it is not limited to a feeling. those exciting, butterfly feelings early in a relationship will fade over time. but don't forget those butterfly feelings. remember how lucky you are to have each other and always put time into meeting each others needs.

read "the five love languages" and "his needs, her needs"

marriage isn't always pretty. it isn't always easy. sometimes you have to "give in". sometimes your spouse "gives in".

put your relationship with your spouse above your relationship with your children. this one is hard for me. the love i have for my daughter is so pure and unconditional. so consuming that, without a moments hesitation, i would die for her. the love i have for my husband is not unconditional. it is based on the respect i have for him by the way he treats me and others and the love he shows me.
yet, my relationship with him must always be my priority. the gift i will give to my children is raising them in a home where they will see what a marriage is supposed to be like. a marriage where their daddy loves their mommy as Christ loved the church. a marriage where their mommy submits to their daddy. they will see that their parents enjoy spending time together and will know where our priorites lie. they will have high standards when they choose their spouse. they will not settle for a mediocre marriage.

all this to say: morgan, although you are only 2 years old, i know the day will come when you will leave our home and become a young man's wife. over the next 20 years or so, i hope that bo and i will teach you what you are worth and what really matters in life.

we love you more than you know

momma

as the engagement draws to an end...

i thought i'd brag on my man a little bit.

2 weeks ago, i got an apartment. bo (with the help of his dad) moved all of mine and morgan's stuff in. he has put up pictures and curtains in every room. he put shelf liner (which he had to measure and cut) in all of the cabinets in the kitchen.
he has cooked supper a couple of times, including filet mignons (sp?) saturday night.

on a daily basis, he picks morgan up from school every day. he said one day a little girl saw him and said "that's morgan's daddy!" of course that made him smile. he also brings her a snack in the car every day. he says that they hold hands on the way home from school. and he also shades her eyes from the sun with his hand. one day last week they stopped at the park on their way home to feed the ducks. just the 2 of them, with no prompting from me.

last night, morgan didn't feel very good and was whiney. after supper (which i cooked, thank you very much!) i took her into the living room to snuggle. you can always tell when she doesn't feel good b/c she sits in your lap and snuggle. since i was busy, bo cleaned the kitchen, without being asked!

he really is such a wonderful man, father and husband. he has such great plans for our future. i am so lucky.

wow, what a year

well, 2007 is coming to a close...and what a life-changing year it has been! my baby girl turned one, i got divorced and i'm engaged to be married again ~ i've also picked up and moved to the delta to be with bo. i'm happier than i've ever been. when i think back to this time last year, before my life was temporarily destroyed by my ex's adultery, i wasn't happy. i was content. but it was difficult to look forward to the future with someone whose dreams included car payments, traveling the world - with or without me - and who didn't give a crap about trying to make me happy. i'm sure there's enough blame to go around for everyone, but i can say i always tried to do the right things. i have no regrets.

and God truly has blessed me. when i was broken down to almost nothing, he gave me someone to help me see that i deserved better. and i am so lucky that this man is a God-fearing, devoted family man. it's strangely wonderful to look forward to sharing my life with someone whose dreams match mine so closely. i can't wait to carry his child one day. to lay in bed and together feel our baby kick inside my belly. to hear him sing songs to our unborn child. and to see the look on his face when that child is born. to watch him hold his very own son for the first time. sometimes i have to pinch myself to remember how lucky i am. and how lucky my daughter is. to have someone that loves us and wants to take care of us.

i love you baby. i hope you read this :-)

there's a thin line

well, yesterday my realtor in jackson calls and says that the buyers for my house have not qualified for their mortgage. so, one week prior to closing, i am back to square one.
it's not the end of the world, now that i have a job lined up (and a well-paying one at that) but it just means less money that bo and i can save to put down on a new home. AND, worst of all, it means more contact with the dumbass who i bought the house with.

now among the employed

well, i quit my job in jackson and came to cleveland with no job. my last day of work was the wednesday before thanksgiving. and i got a job offer 5 days later! i dont start until january, which will be a nice break, but i am soooo excited!!! everything is falling into place. morgan started at her new daycare today and is doing fine. i have found a new tanning bed and hair salon. i am really enjoying my time off of work!

cleveland is starting to feel like home. i can't wait until bo and morgan and i get our own house (i've had fun looking!) and can start our life as a family.

now, if we could just win the lottery...