wow, what a year

well, 2007 is coming to a close...and what a life-changing year it has been! my baby girl turned one, i got divorced and i'm engaged to be married again ~ i've also picked up and moved to the delta to be with bo. i'm happier than i've ever been. when i think back to this time last year, before my life was temporarily destroyed by my ex's adultery, i wasn't happy. i was content. but it was difficult to look forward to the future with someone whose dreams included car payments, traveling the world - with or without me - and who didn't give a crap about trying to make me happy. i'm sure there's enough blame to go around for everyone, but i can say i always tried to do the right things. i have no regrets.

and God truly has blessed me. when i was broken down to almost nothing, he gave me someone to help me see that i deserved better. and i am so lucky that this man is a God-fearing, devoted family man. it's strangely wonderful to look forward to sharing my life with someone whose dreams match mine so closely. i can't wait to carry his child one day. to lay in bed and together feel our baby kick inside my belly. to hear him sing songs to our unborn child. and to see the look on his face when that child is born. to watch him hold his very own son for the first time. sometimes i have to pinch myself to remember how lucky i am. and how lucky my daughter is. to have someone that loves us and wants to take care of us.

i love you baby. i hope you read this :-)