who knew?

it is dark at 4:30 am?
i realized it this morning as i turned off my alarm. perhaps it will be brighter tomorrow.

running blog

well, i've decided that i have to start getting up every morning and running. for me, running means jogging and walking with an occasional sprint.
so i'm gonna post here at least once a week and tell how many times i ran and for how long.
my sister is getting married in about a year and i don't want to look like a big fat cow next to her super-skinny self!!

it's everywhere

so i was driving into town today, and i heard a song begin on the radio. within the first line of the song, i knew what it was about. i waited in the parking lot of the store so i could hear the whole thing. it brought back things i don't like to think about but there is no forgetting. i don't dwell on it anymore, but i won't ever forget.
in a way it was nice to know that someone else out there (and i'm sure many people have experienced the same thing) can put my feelings into words.

it's called "forgive" my rebecca lynn howard

I always said that'd be it
That I wouldn't stick around
If it ever came to this
Here I am so confused
How am I supposed to leave
When I can't even move
In the time that it would've took to say
"Honey I'm home, how was your day"
You dropped a bomb right where we live
And just expected me to forgive

Well that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say forgive

I should ask but I won't
Was it love or just her touch
'Cause I don't think I want to know
So get you some things and get out
Don't call me for a day or two
So I can sort this out
Well you might as well've ripped the life
Right out of me, right here tonight
When through the fallen tears you said
Can you ever just forgive

Well that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say forgive

Well you know what they say
Forgive and forget,
Relive and regret

Forgive, well that's a mighty big word
For such a small man
And I'm not sure I can
'Cause I don't even know now who I am
It's too soon for me to say forgive

It's too soon for me to say
Forgive

gonna try to post pics...

me and mo on easter sunday



morgan's first snow day!

new job!!!

don't know if i mentioned it, but the job i got when i moved here was for tax season, with the possibility of longer, if they needed me. well, they didn't need me, so i've been unemployed since april 16th. it's been ok, i've been working with my husband and father in law.

but now i've got a new job!!! it has GREAT benefits, bankers hours (it's at a bank) but it doesn't pay all that much. but i'm still excited!!!

hopefully this means we will be able to do the home renovations we want to do sooner than planned!

yay!