wow, what a year

well, 2007 is coming to a close...and what a life-changing year it has been! my baby girl turned one, i got divorced and i'm engaged to be married again ~ i've also picked up and moved to the delta to be with bo. i'm happier than i've ever been. when i think back to this time last year, before my life was temporarily destroyed by my ex's adultery, i wasn't happy. i was content. but it was difficult to look forward to the future with someone whose dreams included car payments, traveling the world - with or without me - and who didn't give a crap about trying to make me happy. i'm sure there's enough blame to go around for everyone, but i can say i always tried to do the right things. i have no regrets.

and God truly has blessed me. when i was broken down to almost nothing, he gave me someone to help me see that i deserved better. and i am so lucky that this man is a God-fearing, devoted family man. it's strangely wonderful to look forward to sharing my life with someone whose dreams match mine so closely. i can't wait to carry his child one day. to lay in bed and together feel our baby kick inside my belly. to hear him sing songs to our unborn child. and to see the look on his face when that child is born. to watch him hold his very own son for the first time. sometimes i have to pinch myself to remember how lucky i am. and how lucky my daughter is. to have someone that loves us and wants to take care of us.

i love you baby. i hope you read this :-)

there's a thin line

well, yesterday my realtor in jackson calls and says that the buyers for my house have not qualified for their mortgage. so, one week prior to closing, i am back to square one.
it's not the end of the world, now that i have a job lined up (and a well-paying one at that) but it just means less money that bo and i can save to put down on a new home. AND, worst of all, it means more contact with the dumbass who i bought the house with.

now among the employed

well, i quit my job in jackson and came to cleveland with no job. my last day of work was the wednesday before thanksgiving. and i got a job offer 5 days later! i dont start until january, which will be a nice break, but i am soooo excited!!! everything is falling into place. morgan started at her new daycare today and is doing fine. i have found a new tanning bed and hair salon. i am really enjoying my time off of work!

cleveland is starting to feel like home. i can't wait until bo and morgan and i get our own house (i've had fun looking!) and can start our life as a family.

now, if we could just win the lottery...

leaving the city made of brick

well, tomorrow is the BIG day! my last day of work and the day i leave madison. i am excited, but sad at the same time. the main thing i'll miss is being comfortable. i know the shortcuts to get to my favorite restaurant, i'm comfortable with my daughter's daycare and i love my job and my coworkers.
but, according to some country song "life's about change and nothing ever stays the same". the past year has proved that. i was telling a coworker yesterday that i will have 3 different last names in a 12 month period. married, back to maiden, and married again. that is so beyond how i would have imagined my life to go. but i have learned something very valuable. anything is possible.

in 5 months or so i will be officially starting a new chapter of my life. i believe it will be a life filled with love, laughter and true friendship. stay tuned...

my very own blog

i've been thinking of doing a blog for awhile, and here i am!